The last time I did this I erased it all and I was too distraught to go back and attempt a re-do, so yeah, here I am!
I have been a busy person the past few days. I changed positions at work, from being receptionist to being an account manager, and although I do not yet have my own accounts, I am helping everyone else in the office get caught up until I am comfortable enough to have them. The problem with that? Everyone else is so busy that I end up SUPER busy trying to help 6 other people get caught up. Each one of them could use me for a month before they were in a comfortable place, but instead we only have a couple weeks total. Then on to being my own entity. I have been wondering lately what the hell my motivation behind this was... My last position I could sit and play on the net and basically NOT use my brain and it was pretty easy to handle... I think I went temporarily insane.
The new chick is driving me nuts. She is not another ME and I think that kinda sucks. I should be patient though... I think it took me a little while too.
So yeah. Life has been crazy. I am still going to WW but I think my will power is at an end. I know I should keep going, but I am sure that Fran is about to quit, and once she is no longer going I won't have her motivation anymore. It started out with her motivating me and now I have to keep her afloat... I am not too good at keeping people's spirits up... As far as I am concerned, they're your damned spirits, you keep them up! But yeah... I am trying. I just tend to be too blunt. I told her last week that I thought that she needed to re-evaluate why she was there, and she just gave me a confused look. See, I am not so good at encouragement.
So we shall see.
Jeff and I are doing well in most arenas. Went out to look at engagement rings this weekend... It was scary, but not. Scary that I only liked the $5000 rings, but not scary that we were there. I felt pretty comfortable with the idea. I wonder if I will actually get to plan a wedding this time...? Christ that would be difficult... Don't want to think about it.
So we are trying to buy a house though, and that has been one big clusterfuck after another. I swear to god these realtors try and sell you the shittiest properties first! I ended up at this shitty old rundown slum in Leland a couple weeks ago and I swear to god it was HAUNTED among other things. The guy who lived there apparently blew the pool up. Drained it and dynamited the remaining cement... For no obvious reason, (freaky) and then tried to add rooms on to the existing house. He even added another front door... Ten feet away from the existing front door. Then left the first front door there. There were also two back doors. At this point my Feng Shui was screaming for me to take the fuck off and never come back. The realtor asked me what I thought and I was just all "well, besides the dips in the roof and the crumbling foundation, we are going to have to think about it." I swear to you people, NOTHING in the house was even (plane). Not the floors nor the ceiling, not even the panelling on the walls. There were a hundred things I saw that would have scared the living daylights out of me when I was a five year old, and I just didn't want to raise kids in a place like that. It was odd... We are no longer using that realtor. The next realtor we called never called us back... not to mention the slimy mortgage people. It's like buying a used car from Richard Nixon... you know there has got to be something wrong with it, but the guy is just real convincing.
Well kids, my brain is strapped, time for a glass of wine and some relaxation... redundant much?