Was I not supposed to know?
And why would that be? Is it because I know the intimates of their relationships? Is it because I know how hard Josh can smack someone in anger? Maybe because I was giddy with relief when he told me she was leaving him for someone who made her happy and that he was getting his life back together and going to therapy for his anger issues.
Hell no I don’t agree with their decision, I feel pain, sorrow and pity for a child brought into the world by those two nuts. Good thing mommy and daddy will be there to support them when shit hits the fan. God knows he can’t support them.
Was she not the one just saying that he used her and her trust fund and that is the only reason why he married her? She provided what he needed?
Dear gods in the heavens I hope they are ok.
And yet I know this is the wrong decision.
But then again, it really isn’t any of my business is it?
Fucktards.
I guess I am not angry that I wasn’t told, I am actually not pissed at all. I understand why people would think they shouldn’t say anything. Josh should’ve told me if anyone was going to. The thing is that Josh knows how I would feel about it just as well as everyone else knows. I am militant when it comes to the kid decision. I went through Christina’s pregnancy and eventual rejection by Dragon. I was there for the pathetic attempts at reconciliation. I watched her struggle, like no one else did. I watched and supported, through a lot of guilt but not a lot of choice, I watched her keep a little human in this world so that she could know that at least ONE person loved her. One person who wouldn’t leave and would look up to HER. Un-fucking-believable.
Children are sacred. Little vessels of life that you fill with yourself and teach to become better people than you ever were. People have children because they love each other so much they think that just maybe that kid will get the good qualities they both have and consummate a love that can never be shown in any other way. YOU DON’T HAVE CHILDREN TO FIX YOUR FUCKED UP MARRIAGE!!!!
I can’t believe this is the Josh that I used to love so much. Josh when we were 17, 18, 19 and when we were free. When the world was our oyster and we were a walrus and a carpenter. He used to be realistic, cognizant, and responsible.
This is just sad. I am aghast with the idiocy of it all.
But then again, it really isn’t any of my business after all.