well... shit... I dunno...
2004-01-13

What an uneventful day so far. I really should have something to do, but I don’t! I have sat here and picked at my teeth with a thumbtack for about 10 minutes now and I just realized that I should at least look like I am doing something, but I can’t even fake it I have so little to do. If I do what I can do, I won’t have anything to do for the rest of the week. It is scary. I would like to know just how unproductive one person can be before they melt into nothingness in front of the screen. I am close, I know that much.

So I keep dreaming about Josh, weirdly enough. Just saw a picture of him yesterday on Big Momma’s website and I guess that made me dream about him. It was so strange, in the dream he couldn’t find his keys and I was helping him look, which consisted of me looking and him standing there doing nothing. The strange thing was that I kept finding different sets of keys, like 20 sets, and none of them were the right ones! All these ones were either wrong or Stacey’s… that I guess would also make them wrong. I have no idea. So finally I guess I found the right ones because we were driving somewhere in San Jose, a fair or a carnival or something, and we were mad at each other through the whole thing. That was it. I should call him and see how he is doing, but when he had the cel phone turned off he said he would call me once he had a new number and he never did, so I am kinda paranoid about it like, maybe he doesn’t want me to have it…?

Eh, I will live.

So I am going to start Weight Watchers tomorrow. I am going with a friend from work who is in turn taking a friend of hers and we are going to a meeting tomorrow night. I think this means I am getting older. I used to think I could do it myself because I was young and full of energy and all that crap. Yeah I am wrong, I have no energy anymore. Both these chicks I am going with are like ten years older than me too, and they are all tired of trying to find a man and all that, so they are going to try. The only problem I see is that Fran only wants to lose a few pounds and I want to lose like 50. At least. I am not going back to CA until I lose 50 pounds. Jeff said ages ago if I got below 200 lbs he would take me on a trip and that is where I want to go. Or I want to go to PA. Maybe I shouldn’t try to lead a gift horse to water? The other problem is that I quit smoking yesterday. If I am going to go on a diet there is no way I am going to quit smoking right now. I can’t do both at once… at least I don’t think so. Jeff is all amazed that I could quit all that I have quit and still not manage to quit smoking or eating like a fat hog. I have seen Weight Watchers work for a lot of people though, so hopefully it can work for me. I am going to try and at least take a look tomorrow and get an idea of what they want from me. I can’t afford anything too expensive, but Jeff said he would help me. As any guy who wants a thinner girlfriend would, heh heh heh.

OK, so Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time is one of the best video games I have ever played. I have never cursed at a game so much in my life and yet still played for hours on end. I want to play Eternal Darkness and Beyond Good and Evil too, but Jeff said I had to finish POP before I could get anymore long RPGs. So when I want a requiem I need to play Soul Caliber II or Dead or Alive. Soul Caliber rocks, Dead or Alive blows monkey nuts. I am pretty good at it though. I am back to being a video game junkie… How funny… I need good video game suggestions… I can never tell what is going to be good and what is going to suck, and I don’t want to spend the money on suck ya know?

Alright I am going to go to lunch, better get in a couple good ones before Wednesday. Wink… sigh…



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