fuck's sake!
2004-01-05

I want to get a dog. I am not sure that Jeff is going to let me though. I have taken to this NC attitude that everyone has a dog and that is just how it is. But here I am without a dog! How is that right? I may sway him still though, my birthday is coming up after all. Tee Hee. Although I am sure sometimes that I can commit to having an indoor dog there are other times, like when I am sleeping in until noon on Sunday, that I know I would kill a dog if I had one. I would have to get up to take the little shithead outside so he could do his business. Saturday that’s OK, Sunday I am not so sure. Is the love and joy that comes with a dog worth having to get up for fifteen minutes on a Sunday? I would have to do it too, since Jeff is all about the litter boxes and I can barely clean the birdcage. I think this requires a little more thought. I doubt I could get him to agree anyway. The reason it’s on my mind though is because ever since Peanuts passed I have felt that Jeff feels a little lonely and because everyone at work found out and is trying to pawn off pets to me. Well not really PAWNING, just letting me know that if I am interested blah blah blah and Julius has a friend with a ten week old terrier puppy that won’t get above 15 pounds full grown. I think it’s a Cairn terrier or a rat terrier. I am not sure. But I like both breeds very much. Now how do I convince the boyfriend to take a look? Christ. I am sure I have more important things to worry about.

So I managed to get into a fight with my whole family last night. Even with my brother in law and I wasn’t even trying! To get to Walmart from my house I have to pass my parent’s, and on the way there yesterday I noticed that Sarah’s car was there, so I figured I could at least stop by and pick up a shoe I left there when my ankle was bound. So Jeff and I go in and Sarah is making dinner and I said Hi to everyone, grabbed the shoe and said Bye. Sarah tries to get me at the door and she’s like, “Why don’t you stay?” and I was just kinda miffed. I told her I was just there to get something and neither mom nor dad said “Hey we’re making dinner, you two want to stay?” So we decided to go. She gets all upset about how I feel like I have to be invited. So when I get home there is a snide ass mother fucking comment on my answering machine from my mother about how we didn’t have to be invited, it was always an open invitation and if we wanted to drop the attitude or something like that, we could come over and have tacos.

I about shit my pants. I swear to god. I didn’t even call the bitch back. First of fucking all, why didn’t you invite us while we were there? Why didn’t you say, hey by the way, we’re having tacos and we have enough for you guys to stay and eat with us? Why didn’t you call me before hand and say come over for food? I had to stop by to find out they were having dinner, I wasn’t planning on staying anyway and despite the fact that it would have been nice, there is no mother humping way I am going to stop by, notice you have food and declare that I am staying for dinner. That shit is rude as fuck and if they did it to me I would be pissed. AND this is all the day after my mother throws a fit over not being invited to my house Saturday night for dinner and a movie with Sarah, Ryan and Jeff and I. So I made sure to call her and formally invite her. She can throw a fit over that shit, but I get bitched at via my ANSWERING MACHINE for doing the polite thing.

Note to all: If you want to elicit a verbal response from me, NEVER EVER, have the nut sack required to bitch at me on my answering machine.

Pant pant pant…

Ok, now I am all worked up over that crap and I am back to being in a shitty mood. Fucking Great. Happy thoughts Happy thoughts…

Fuck a happy thought. I think whatever “fuck” disease ChasingNuns had was contagious. I like fuck too.

Hey, that’s a happy thought… I like the word fuck. I think I will say it out loud a lot today. Thanks Nuns!

ok dorky quiz time!!
Dewey

Which Scream Character Are You?
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Youre Fred! You like small dark spaces, and you
love to build things. Youre torn between work
and play, but in the end, it always evens out

Which Angel character are you most like?
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So one last thing...Have you ever realized that someone you really love is nothing more than a self important asshole most of the time? I am coming to this realization with some people, and it doesn't make me love them less or dislike them at all, but I am aware of it more than I used to be. I hate it because these people are people I look up to, so that probably means that I am just as bad, which sucks, because I am trying to be the better person, but overall, I think we are all just fucked. How's that for a run on sentence?

~ Black Eyed Dog

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