I missed my period this month. Jeff decided to let me know that he noticed. Then we got to talking about it and I just decided that I didn’t really want to talk about it anymore. I have always had problems with my cycle, but I have been on the pill for about 6 months now and I have never just blatantly missed a period like that. I kind of have this quiet calm about me. I don’t feel any different, I am not throwing up in the mornings or anything like that, so I am not really worried… It was just odd that he noticed and wanted to discuss the possibility.
What pissed me off about it was him asking me if I was being so lovable lately because I was worried about having a bun in the oven. I took it the wrong way and he explained himself to me, meaning that maybe I was happy about it and therefor being extra lovey, but I was miffed at first. See, the thing is, if I was preggers, that would really be OK with me. We don’t really have the money for something like that right now, and we are not really prepared to be parents, but I know it would all work out. People have done more with less… He and I would make really good parents and our parents would be happy about it. I don’t really want to be a single mom, but I doubt I would have to be. I worry because we are not ready to be married yet, but this is a very real possibility that could throw us into a situation that we regret later.
That’s the other thing. I don’t know what is keeping him from being ready anymore than I know what is keeping me. All our friends and relatives are so sure it is going to happen, and that is without any confirmation or information from either of us, so what is keeping us? Besides the fact that we have only known each other since April. 8 months now, and Sarah and Ryan were married 9 months after they met. Maybe that is why I am all weird about it. Here I am 27 and my 23 year old sister is married and I am not.
I don’t know. Patience is a virtue I don’t readily possess, but I am definitely not sure why I am in such a hurry. I just have this nagging feeling that I don’t have a lot of time. I have had that feeling my whole life and it keeps going, but I can’t ever seem to shake it. Eh, I give up. I am a freak I guess.
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