a poo day...
2003-11-13

So no quizzes today I have decided. I had way too much to do when everyone was here today to do quizzes, but now that everyone is at lunch I guess I can fill ya'll in. Keep my life documented in case I get alzheimers or something. I often wonder what will become of Diaryland in the next ten or twenty years... Will our lives be forever documented and lost in some computer somewhere? Will we know before it goes? Can you imagine the space required to keep some of the rambling entries for all time? Maybe one day they will publish the most interesting and we can all make royalties or something... I dunno. I know the Rok pays for her sight and that makes d-land happy, but the VAST majority does not, crickey, I am starting to feel bad.

So on to other topics. Jeff's promotion has been delayed again. This time for only two weeks they SAY, but they say a lot. He came in this morning bearing breakfast to break the news to me. I didn't even feel like eating when he was done, not that I really felt like eating once I realized it was simply to soften the blow of something I was NOT going to like... and sure enough, I didn't like, but he kept apologizing and for that I felt bad. I was and am not mad at him, I am merely PISSED at his job, and he has no control over that yet. I know I am being selfish, but for Christ's sake I might as well live alone! It gets rough after a while and I know I said I could handle it but it has been months. I'm just tired of it. How can I not be? I just can't keep up the facade of it being ok anymore and if that makes me selfish and unreasonable, then so fucking be it right?

I dunno, everything sucks right now.

Freaking two days away from not sleeping alone every night.

Bastards.

Ok better now. Not quite right, but better.

grrr... I'll come back soon when I have a better topic to spew forth about. Maybe this Titan game we have been playing will come up. It's uber fun, and we are playing again Saturday night. What I think is fun is that it's one of those difficult time consuming games my dad plays with his friends, and I have been invited, I am the only girl, and I am good. Tee hee, that's always nice to hear when you are a newbie. Kicked some major butt the first time I played. I died, but I kicked butt before then!!

Allright then, I think I am going to go to lunch.

Until later,

~Black Eyed Dog

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