Talked to Josh last night... It was interesting to say the least. I have always known that the boy didn't possess any sense of remorse, but one would think that when your wife leaves you, you would feel a little sad over it. His basic explanation was "Well if it was meant to be... blah blah blah..." So I played the good listener and as he always does, he turned it into me being the vapid babbler. He needs help I think, serious, rehab, emotional, psychiatric help. The mind of the Joshua has gone somewhere and it is lost in a very dark hole. I just wish I could help more. We promised that if we didn't see each other soon we would meet up at Burning Man, and I just really hope he makes it that far. If you are a reader and a friend of the freak, maybe its a good idea to help him out. He is lonely.
So Karl, 'member him Rok?, had triplets. Well his girlie did. They gave them up for adoption. That's all I know. I am a bad gossip queen, but some things must suffer when you are 3000 miles away from the gossip epicenter. I try though!
I have to swoon for a minute though, before I gets off to bed, about my man. Talked to him tonight before he went to work and my god this guy is amazing. He makes me feel so nice! He is more excited than me it seems and I thought that was impossible. He somehow manages to keep a much clearer head than I do. I am jealous. He is pretty much ready and calm and just waiting for my slack ass. I am amazed at his ability to be ready for this kind of shit. We had a long talk this weekend about a lot of issues I have been having, fears and stuff, and in a matter of less than an hour he made me feel so much less trepadicious. I wanted to get worked into a state of near hysteria and by the time he was finished I felt really good. The whole thing with moving in with someone again and trusting them again and allowing myself to get back into a relationship has been freaking your Dog out, and she has been really concerned over the Josh thing, as she is the one who takes care of him when things get their worst for him... Lets just say I have been trippin' and my heart goes every which way and I get way too worked up and nervous. Yet Jeff manages to bring me back from the edge (and sometimes the canyon) of hysteria and makes it all better. I am in awe of the man. Ya'll would be too. tee hee
Ok its 10:30 and this old woman must sleep so that she doesn't feel ill again tomorrow. I just wanted to check in and let my buds know I was and am alive. Don't expect much from me in the next couple of weeks, as I am going to be uber busy, but I promise to check in now and again.