Stangeness is the thing they call Friendster. I got all nostalgic today after going through the Rok's friends and some of their friends. I got to spend a few minutes remembering the trip to the Fog City Diner and PE with Shona and other random crap. It seems that more people from high school have come up in the past month than in the last five years. I am kinda thinking like the lobster though, do I really want to relive that dramarama that was high school and the people that I thought I wanted to be friends with then but who really kinda made me feel inadequate as a 16 year old, and now I feel as if I have become infinitely less pathetic than them and hey it might be fun to RUB IT IN!!!! pant pant pant... because that is the true root of it at some level. Then again, I did really like some of them. I dunno. I had a rough time through high school... I mean, I think I was well liked, but I know I was hated by a few people and I was under the impression, as we all are during those four years, that I had to act like someone cooler than I really was. Now the dork that I am now, I like, I think I am pretty fucking awesome and fun to be around, and smart as hell and funny as shit. Not to mention damned cute and a hell of a good friend when I can be. Yet I still kinda have this need to prove that to other people, but the truth of the matter is they were all not that cool to start with, and that should be the bottom line.
Wow, rehashing way old issues is wacky. I don't really miss these people, but I want to see who they became and kinda compare. Is that normal?
Introspective Dog tonight. My feet are freezing. Dad bought a ping pong table. I need to move the fuck out. I miss the man. I want ice cream. Need to call Raevyn. Need to call the Rok. Too many things. I think my man demanded I go home and go to bed tonight in not so many words and I am not doing it, so I think I just may do that now.
cripes I am spread kinda thin...
~Black Eyed Dog
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