So tomorrow, or maybe later this week, I am going to ask for a raise. The prospect of doing this has shaken me to my very core. I get cold chills and the shakes whenever I think about what I am going to say, and I think I should maybe write it all down so that I can steal a look at note cards while doing it. I know that without a doubt that I deserve one and have more than earned one in the past three weeks, its just that its like squeezing blood out of a rock. And I just got a 50 cent raise like 3 months ago. Or I could just get another job. I hate to bring up an ultimatim, ultimatum?, but it just might be necessary. Drunken Christ on toast.
So I managed to be an ultra stressed out bitch this weekend until we left my house and stayed at Jeff's. I think I bit his head off so many times that it now hurts for it to grow back. I was so stressed out over my parents being weird that I took it out on him. They were so irritated at me all week and never said why, and then on Friday it was like poof be normal! I can never tell. I was so on edge that I just wanted out of the house. So saturday night came none too soon. Now everything with them is fine, and I still on edge cuz I am not sure what the fuck is going on! I kinda want to scream that I am moving out in a month!! Can we not get over it?!?!?!
Jeff is a dream though, despite all the bickery bullshit we managed to be adult enough to talk about it and get it out of our systems. He is good like that, a person who can snap me out of those moods is hard to come by. I know how hard it is to get me to not be angry and he did a fine job. Hell he even made a few snide comments directed at me over the weekend. It was a mutual irritation I think. Yet with just a couple deep breaths and I'm sorrys it was all good. I do love that man.
We looked for places this weekend. I need to do some more research, cuz I want to be able to afford it, but it's looking hard to find stuff in the areas we are searching in. Outside of wilmington advertising doesn't exist, so it might be a drive around and look sort of thing, but as we found out saturday that is a lot harder than one may think. And it tends to make people grumpy.
So wish me luck and if you know of anything outside of Wilmington NC within 30 miles of it and Elizabethtown NC for rent, let me know, there's an e-mail link up there ya know...