So I applied for a job with USF Glen Moore in Lumberton yesterday and as of yet I still have not received anything back. I know its just one day but I would think that if I was the smack bang wonderfulness they were looking for I woulda got something back from them. It's all the way in Lumberton, which is a little over an hour away from Wilmington, but its only about a half an hour from Elizabethtown... where Jeffrey works. And that would be nice, as then maybe we could move somewhere only 15 minutes from work ya know?
So I know I have been writing a lot about my man and nothing else lately, and I am sorry if this is getting a little irritating to some, but I am really consumed. I will keep it short tonight I think as I am still mulling over some shit that happened last night. See... yer Dog panicked... as only the Dog can... started freaking out about money and depending on someone else for it and not wanting to and being reminded of the craptastic mess that has become Rick and my monetary sitch, and I called Jeff and acted like an asshole. I guess I need to chill on the pride issue, as I want to be with him more than anything else, and maybe that will take longer if I insist on being an equal in things... but that is important to me. It's like a catch 22. I dunno. I just want out of my god damned house and I am willing to do whatever it takes to do that. So I am going to be a very lean girl the next couple of months. Hopefully I can get at least 5 or 6 hundred saved and that should be enough to start with. I just can't continue to act like I like living here. I love my mom and dad, but for christ's sakes, I want to be able to see them when I want to, not always...
I feel like such an asshole lately too. I am not quite sure why. I think its a combination of the fact that I am irritated all the time and really just an asshole. Thick and thin of it really. Have I been neglecting people?
Think I am going to go now, gotta learn how to make Schnitzel real quick.. this should be fun...