I avoided all calls from Tat Guy, I am just not in the mood to act like I care about what he is saying. I may even try to find Melvin so I can have someone else touch it up for me... I wish I had ended this shit from the start, not only am I not ready for a relationship, I am not ready to lower my standards again. That's all I ever do, and look at the results.
I want the next man to be thrilling. I want to never be ashamed when my friends tell me he is not cute or that they could never picture the two of us together. I want to not think that with a little work he could be good enough. I just want him to walk up and say hello and have my heart leave permanently at that point. This is why I like Bryan so much, but he is in fucking Wisconsin. I haven't talked to him in a couple of days, and its freaking me out a little, usually he gets in touch with me... POO ... I am afraid that if I did ever meet him he would be dissapointed, or I would, I dunno, and I think that this is not such a good thought to have so early. I am trippin over this boy, and he is like 1000 miles away.
I hate being a stupid girl.